DESIGNER'S BLOCK, searching for a muse

Sometime ago I searched for a muse to design a line around to no avail. One model that I thought was perfect loved modeling for a few pics, but the thought of her being on the runway made her scared. She wanted me to consider her sister. Since then I had looked and looked for that perfect inspiration to cure my designer's block and I found her. Her name is Life. Just when I thought she had abandoned me she breathed a life into me that I thought was gone long ago. She was right there in front of me a long time ago like Dorothy's glass slippers, but I had not even paid attention to her until recently. She is beautiful and I love her.
Last year this time I was caring for a loved one who has since gone back to the creator. I saw no end until the Creator saw fit to take her back home. My brother reminded me of those special things that I already had at my disposal and although I first did not hear it, I moved with the ferocity of a panther. It like the Creator was holding me as I was doing what I was doing. I still had all the same situations but all of a sudden they did not seem so difficult. After my loved one went back to the Creator I became ME again. Designs are constantly coming up in my head, I have help with what I need, food taste better and the air seems cleaner. The only thing I wish that I had was the ability to sew as fast as I think.
So here I am, embracing life both tenderly and tightly , paying attention to her every move. I grateful that she is inspiring me and helping me to be a better designer and a better woman.